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Camp has started once again, and this year began with one of the hottest days I've ever had to be outside in, but the rest of the week has been cooler. Children continue to amaze me in both good and bad ways, and I continue to question whether I really want any.
I just finished reading Three Cups of Tea, and it's one of the best stories I've ever read. If you haven't read it, I strongly encourage you to. It rules.
I have too much stuff and I have a really hard time deciding what I want to keep and want to get rid of. Sometimes I just want to get rid of everything, and sometimes I am so damn nostalgic that it hurts. I don't know what to do with my condradicting feelings.
I have recently been very aware that my real life will begin this time next year, and that I will have no health insurance and will have to find a real job, and this scares and excites me. I don't want to do anything with a ton of responsibility next summer. I want to go to California with Amy and Jess and I want to go to Alaska with Jon. I want to have a fun summer, because the last three have always been about working to build a resume or earn credits or to make money.
I think I'll get my teaching credential at a college in Baltimore when I'm done at Wilson. I'd like to convince Amy that living in Baltimore would be fun, because then we could live together. But I have to first convince myself that it would be fun before I can work on convinving her.
My dad said he'd give me $300 toward a new computer, which is awfully nice of him. I'd like an iMac, but those are super expensive. Anyone know of any relatively good laptops that aren't terribly expensive?
I love Jon more than ever.
I started running this week, which is strange because I have never, ever enjoyed running and I haven't ever run voluntarily in my life. But I like feeling a little sore in the mornings when I wake up and improving my cardiovascular endurance is always something I've wanted to do.
When I don't think about starving children in other countries, the fact that world is running out of rescources, and that I don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life, things are
pretty okay!
I just finished reading Three Cups of Tea, and it's one of the best stories I've ever read. If you haven't read it, I strongly encourage you to. It rules.
I have too much stuff and I have a really hard time deciding what I want to keep and want to get rid of. Sometimes I just want to get rid of everything, and sometimes I am so damn nostalgic that it hurts. I don't know what to do with my condradicting feelings.
I have recently been very aware that my real life will begin this time next year, and that I will have no health insurance and will have to find a real job, and this scares and excites me. I don't want to do anything with a ton of responsibility next summer. I want to go to California with Amy and Jess and I want to go to Alaska with Jon. I want to have a fun summer, because the last three have always been about working to build a resume or earn credits or to make money.
I think I'll get my teaching credential at a college in Baltimore when I'm done at Wilson. I'd like to convince Amy that living in Baltimore would be fun, because then we could live together. But I have to first convince myself that it would be fun before I can work on convinving her.
My dad said he'd give me $300 toward a new computer, which is awfully nice of him. I'd like an iMac, but those are super expensive. Anyone know of any relatively good laptops that aren't terribly expensive?
I love Jon more than ever.
I started running this week, which is strange because I have never, ever enjoyed running and I haven't ever run voluntarily in my life. But I like feeling a little sore in the mornings when I wake up and improving my cardiovascular endurance is always something I've wanted to do.
When I don't think about starving children in other countries, the fact that world is running out of rescources, and that I don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life, things are
pretty okay!
Devious Journal Entry
Yesterday I climbed a 70-foot Alpine Tower challenge course with a man who is blind. By far one of the coolest things I've had the pleasure of doing. He cried when his group had to leave, and he very obviously had a good time. And when he was on the haul-swing, he started singing to all of us. It sure was great.
On a completely unrelated note, sometimes I have inexplicable urges to tell or ask perfect strangers awful things. Like that their outfit is ugly or that they just need to stop acting so dumb around certain people. Does this make me a bad person?
I don't think so, but I could be wrong.
Do you know if that pipe organ works?
In two weeks from right this second I will be on my way home for the summer. That's not very long to begin with, and with the way weeks have gone by for me recently, I'll go to sleep tonight and wake up and there will only be two days left for me to finish all of my school work and move out.
Things have been pretty OK recently. I got another tattoo on Friday, care of the recycling crew at Wilson. I won the recycled art show with a bag I made and the prize was $100 toward something that doesn't create much waste. I figured I probably wasn't ever going to set aside that much for a tattoo, so I went for it. I got a lady fern sort of cradling my
Guarding your benefits
There's about 3 weeks left in this semester, which is nuts. I feel like the past 3 months have flown by. I'm not sure I've accomplished much, save writing an 85-page program that I would re-write if I had the chance. I took an exam yesterday, the first real exam I've taken in about a year. I think I did okay. I really like developmental psych and the class I'm in.
Graduation is May 17, and I have to be home by the 19th to work for a week at NCTC. I'm not entirely sure why I signed myself up for that; I guess I need the money and I do like teaching kids about birds and plants and things.
Camp is going to be way different this year; there's
After a while, Crocodile
Yesterday I watched a documentary called Red Without Blue. It's about a guy who is trans and is a twin, and how changing from a man to a woman affected her relationship with her brother and her family. It was really interesting, and if genderfuck things don't freak you out, I'd recommend it.
This morning I woke up and watched Amelie and now I feel like I need to do something blissfully wonderful today. I've got to work for 6 hours and then I'm going to hang out with James, but who knows, maybe something unexpected will happen.
Even though it's just for the weekend, I'm looking forward to seeing Jon two weeks from now.
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Ha, I was having a day today where I felt so nostalgic it hurt and looked back through all my old deviations and comments!I hope your life has been good these past 20 years.