ladyindistress

mr. suave, sitting outside the cafe, you\'re too cool for the inside, sipping coffee, reading the newspaper, smoking your cigarette. but oh, you\'re not quite all you crack yourself up to be. you sit ouside because you\'re allergic to dust, your coffee is water in a pretty styrofoam cup, your newspaper consists of crosswords and comics, your cigarettes makes you gag and cough. tsk tsk... you\'re quite the little liar

in the shower, letting water run over body. pick up razor, start to shave almost slender legs. left leg done, move to  right. make one long slightly smooth stroke. ouch, a knick. blood flows freely from a nearly invisablle cut, water mixing with it, making it a wash of pink, running down leg. stand and stare. shelter leg from rain of shower head, watch pink turn to deep red. blood moving more slowly, becoming denser. turn around, let it be washed away suddenly. step out, right leg first, left follows. land on a damp bath mat. naked, pat wound dry. search through top drawer. apply band-aid.

i can see all of his persona,                    half of who he wants to be,            a quarter of his intentions,     and none of who he really is.

not wanting to hold on is what does it, thinking that it would be nice to see it all go. wonderng if it would be better to watch it go free rather than keeping it tied, like those runaway balloons. letting go of the strings, watching it all slowly floataway. ok, it floats up, but it sure goes away. you and your life, like those runaway balloons. so, you let go. you\'re watching it fly. you like it that way for a while, but eventually want it back. but reality hits you, you forever let it go, like those runaway balloons.

you control my emotions like a puppetier to a puppet. you can make or break me with a wave of your hand. you are my beginning, my middle, my end. the very thought of you makes my mind sprial out of control, you don\'t even have to be near me to make me confused and clueless. my head is telling my heart, \"no...\" but you my heart isn\'t listening, it\'s clinging on  to hope that isn\'t there. you are my creator, my destroyer. please, make your memory leave me alone.

the oil that i cry, becomes an ocean a thousand miles wide, i\'m drowning in the three inch deep puddle i created. and when the tears do cease, i look at my paper thin life and find a crease, a crease that\'s starting to tear... i fiegn my security, i have no self nobility, i don\'t place myself on a pedistal and stare at me in awe. i keep finding reasons to doubt, my heart is telling my body that it wants out, there\'s no way i can survive with this darkness surrounding my mind. agnst and fear fill me, my confusion overwhelms me, and now i realize i unerstad myself no longer, but i ask myself \"did i ever?\"

an open window- a breeze lazily flows through, making the curtains billow gently, rustling rose petals, moving them from the window sill...                                           to the floor.   he found her earlier that day, lying on the bed in that dress he loved to see on her so much, the dress that wasn't white anymore...her blood poisoned the white perfection of the cloth, of her perfect skin. her blue eyes beaneath lids that would be closed forever, her lips sealed with words no one would ever know...            except for him.   he loved her, oh, how he loved her. but he hadn't taken her seriously. he hadn't thought her thr

for a while, every red car that passed was yours. every time the phone rang, it was you. when i heard the sound the computer makes when someone IMs me, it was your screen name i saw. i\'ll always wonder why it took me so long to get over you. we really weren;t the worlds greatest couple. i was so whipped i was nearly obsessed, and you cared more about the condition of your car than you ever dd about me. i centered my life around you; i planned nothing intil i knew when e could hang out. and that wasn\'t that often. you went out with your friends a lot, while i stayed home watching crap tv and hoping that your plans would fall through and you